从昨天开始觉得有些冷了。湛江现在的温度在十度到二十度之间吧，我印象中湛江最低温度应该是四度五度的样子。这个时候是要穿毛衣的。昨天我给宿舍里面的两个大窗户都挂上了窗帘，因为我总觉得中午午睡的时候阳光太强往往会让我的眼睛难受。所以我总是喜欢用毛巾盖住眼睛再午睡，挂上窗帘可以让阳光暗很多。

今天才发现这样做的缺点，因为是冬季，遮住阳光也是意味着降低了室内的温度。让屋子里显得比较阴暗。看样子是我选择的季节不正确。

最近一段时间都没有踢球了，一方面老是凑不够人数，另一方面也是因为广医现在不让外校的人入内了。怪烦人的。12月3号广州有个研究生专场招聘会。我老是不想去。不知道为什么现在对找工作一点兴趣都没有。为什么一点都不慌张呢？为什么就不能着急起来呢？

我总觉得未来会很从容。

May be i am a man of less of enterprising or ambitious drive. This is not a good status. It doesn't means I haven't dreams. But lives in dreams together with nothing  to do reality and as a result made me sink into deprssion.

Am I old? Am I old? I am only 24 years old and a long distance left in my life. Infact i want to do foreign trade after I graduate and I also want to fetch a Doctor degree also. Of course , No matter which road I chosed , I should key up a endavour.

Why can't I work hard now? I got the answer yesterday. Because I always in the feeling of disappointment and depression whenever I was in the lab. Because I am a loser there. You can't understand a man with strong ego and pride before but a loser now how badly feeling he had .

Whenever I sit there my heart will speed up and my breathe will became heave.