tomorrow, 24 years old or 25 years old?

1212 is a special number for me .  There is a long string of numbers in my ID card and it told me I borned in 1983-12-12. That means tomorrow is my bithday.

In fact we chinese never use the Julian calendar to celebrate the birthday.  Birthday just like the spring festival or the mid-autumn day it is a traditional big day for somebody and as a result lunar calendar is the approved way.

Unfortunatly I just can't remember my lunar birthday exactly and I think there is nothing important which day is choosed to be this celebration. 12 12 sounds nice and can be easily rememered that's the ideal althernative choice.

BUt this birthday can do nothing but make me unpleasing because I gradually older and there is still a vacuum in my life that I even have no face to mention it's name , career.

Yes , career.

I saw a film yesterday which was a earlier work of Nicolas Cage. The story mainly told a common man's life and the feeling when he need to hold responsibility for his wife and children. He lost himself in the marriage and even tried leave home for freedom again.

Of couse it is not a good way to shifting responsibility but I just have a psychological fear towards this adult man's life. Am I prepared?

25 years is a new  era.